Hello to my Followers and those who will be following soon!
Of course it has been a minute since I have given you all the scoop on my life! First thing, I got into my Post-Bac Program at Southern Illinois University in Carbondale!!! I am very proud of this accomplishment and all of you should share in my excitement!
So you know how sometimes life can hit you with lots of overwhelming occurrences, well that is sort of where I am right now. When you feel like it just doesn't end and you just want to skip to the phase in life where you are done with all of the business you talk about to other people on a daily basis. However, I know I cannot skip to that point and everyday I must accomplish at least one task so I can feel good about myself for what I did.
First there was the apartment search. Living in Carbondale is scarce especially with a dog. I love animals, why can't everyone love them? But I found a place, my humble abode, where I will be living for two years...yikes! One check on the list right, okay on to the next one....
Second, FAFSA of course has its way of sneaking up on you and that is filled out and submitted along with the tuition waiver for the fall and spring semesters. With that in mind, that puts more stuff on my list---I have to complete a FAFSA for 2009-2010 school year so that I can turn in my summer tuition waiver. But let's talk about how I really need the fall and spring tuition waived. I went through undergrad with all these loans and I'm just praying that God comes through for me so that I am not left with so many expenses at the end of my program.
Third, I must prepare for financing this program if I do not receive a tuition waiver. So that means applying for scholarships and loans (ugh!!!)...This is truly an aside but the lady sitting at the table next to me is slurping and chewing so loud, LIKE REALLY! But anyways, I have not progressed in this quite yet, but I'm working it.
As you can I am so far from drained...I'm near breaking down but God stays on my side so I can't complain any further. Everything is almost over so no worries. I'm just trying to push through and get this taking care of so I can just sit back and relax!
And you what...I know this blog entry is boring because it is boring me typing it but just keeping you guys updated on my journey!
Peace and blessings!
Ahj
Tuesday, April 26, 2011
Thursday, February 3, 2011
A Bit Motivated Lately: Journey on a Rollercoaster
Hey Lovelies!!
I haven't blogged in a while and YEESSSS there is so much to catch you up on! It's absolutely too much!
So I guess you are thinking "Why today? Why pick today at 1:53 am to blog right?" Okay, so my best friend Imani asked about it today and I was felt so uplifted because I didn't even think that anyone would ask about it. But she did!!! Thanks girl for being my FAN!
Writing should be expressive and I think that its a way to clear the mind and relax and let things out that once they are out, you don't have to revisit them again because they are officially gone...so here it goes:
Rollercoasters are fun, they take you in loops and spin and jerk you left and right and that can give you the best smiles you ever had! But some rollercoasters aren't fun, in particular the rollercoaster that teaches life lessons. I call it the "I need to get back to reality" rollercoaster. Yes it tossed me around and I hit my head a couple of times, really HARD!!! But in the midst of that rollercoaster, I learned so much in terms of relationships, success, and my spirituality!
So on the topic of relationships:
They are amusing and sometimes you don't know what to expect from them, but you do them, maybe because you are hoping that THE ONE may be him. But in actuality, it was never him to begin with. He was a stopper in my sink, a hair bush clogging the freakin toilet, and if I didn't remove him soon, I was going to crack! But I got my courage back, not just any 'ol courage, but some hard core, black woman, "don't take no ish from no one" courage that allowed me to fight back....So I did just that!
You come into my home, ran scissors through stuff that meant the most to me! Disrupted my flow of life by ripping the things needed to maintain my personal and social livelihood and like a FEMALE....LIKE THOSE CRAZY FEMALES, you cleaned my room and disguised the abuse that you thought no one would ever find out about...JUST STUPID AND EXCUSE MY FRENCH, but straight BITCHMADE!!!
But two months have passed and I am feeling brand new. The pulling on my arms and shaking me has stopped! YOU THOUGHT YOU COULD KEEP CONTROL, but IT HAD TO STOP!
Now I'm walking the streets of St. Louis, knowing you still are somewhere in this city, smiling and carrying on with my coquettish style of when I wanna pull of a man! The song "I'm Doing Me" swirls through my ears and I'm feeling Fantasia on every single phrase in her song...
While I'm doing me...
I'm actually feeling sorry for you! I'm pray for you and keeping you so close because even though what you did was come into my life like a windstorm, I'm going to love and acknowledge you. Don't you dare ask me, "Why don't you have anything to say about what happened? Why are you being so nice?" Because what I'm going to tell you is the sweetest thing; that in those sweet words, your heart will be shattered..."There is nothing to say and I'm praying for you when I'm not praying for myself."
YOU ARE THE ENEMY!!!! Just to let you know that! The Good Book says keep your enemies close! I'm going to love my enemies, I'm going to keep my enemies close to my heart and acknowledge my enemies because at the end of the day, I CAME OUT ON TOP AND YOU STILL TRYING TO PULL YOURSELF OUT OF THE DITCH YOU! YOU ARE AN EX FOR A REASON AND IF YOU DON'T KNOW BY NOW, DUDE GETCHA MIND RIGHT!
To be continued...not on the relationship tip, but ON THE SUCCESS AND POSITIVITY THAT FOLLOWS WHEN I PUT MY TRASH IN THE DUMPSTER!!! We'll talk soon lovelies!!!
I haven't blogged in a while and YEESSSS there is so much to catch you up on! It's absolutely too much!
So I guess you are thinking "Why today? Why pick today at 1:53 am to blog right?" Okay, so my best friend Imani asked about it today and I was felt so uplifted because I didn't even think that anyone would ask about it. But she did!!! Thanks girl for being my FAN!
Writing should be expressive and I think that its a way to clear the mind and relax and let things out that once they are out, you don't have to revisit them again because they are officially gone...so here it goes:
Rollercoasters are fun, they take you in loops and spin and jerk you left and right and that can give you the best smiles you ever had! But some rollercoasters aren't fun, in particular the rollercoaster that teaches life lessons. I call it the "I need to get back to reality" rollercoaster. Yes it tossed me around and I hit my head a couple of times, really HARD!!! But in the midst of that rollercoaster, I learned so much in terms of relationships, success, and my spirituality!
So on the topic of relationships:
They are amusing and sometimes you don't know what to expect from them, but you do them, maybe because you are hoping that THE ONE may be him. But in actuality, it was never him to begin with. He was a stopper in my sink, a hair bush clogging the freakin toilet, and if I didn't remove him soon, I was going to crack! But I got my courage back, not just any 'ol courage, but some hard core, black woman, "don't take no ish from no one" courage that allowed me to fight back....So I did just that!
You come into my home, ran scissors through stuff that meant the most to me! Disrupted my flow of life by ripping the things needed to maintain my personal and social livelihood and like a FEMALE....LIKE THOSE CRAZY FEMALES, you cleaned my room and disguised the abuse that you thought no one would ever find out about...JUST STUPID AND EXCUSE MY FRENCH, but straight BITCHMADE!!!
But two months have passed and I am feeling brand new. The pulling on my arms and shaking me has stopped! YOU THOUGHT YOU COULD KEEP CONTROL, but IT HAD TO STOP!
Now I'm walking the streets of St. Louis, knowing you still are somewhere in this city, smiling and carrying on with my coquettish style of when I wanna pull of a man! The song "I'm Doing Me" swirls through my ears and I'm feeling Fantasia on every single phrase in her song...
While I'm doing me...
I'm actually feeling sorry for you! I'm pray for you and keeping you so close because even though what you did was come into my life like a windstorm, I'm going to love and acknowledge you. Don't you dare ask me, "Why don't you have anything to say about what happened? Why are you being so nice?" Because what I'm going to tell you is the sweetest thing; that in those sweet words, your heart will be shattered..."There is nothing to say and I'm praying for you when I'm not praying for myself."
YOU ARE THE ENEMY!!!! Just to let you know that! The Good Book says keep your enemies close! I'm going to love my enemies, I'm going to keep my enemies close to my heart and acknowledge my enemies because at the end of the day, I CAME OUT ON TOP AND YOU STILL TRYING TO PULL YOURSELF OUT OF THE DITCH YOU! YOU ARE AN EX FOR A REASON AND IF YOU DON'T KNOW BY NOW, DUDE GETCHA MIND RIGHT!
To be continued...not on the relationship tip, but ON THE SUCCESS AND POSITIVITY THAT FOLLOWS WHEN I PUT MY TRASH IN THE DUMPSTER!!! We'll talk soon lovelies!!!
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